Can't you see me? Cause I feel like you can't. Am I invinsible or something? Its not that I want attention but I feel outcasted somehow. Don't know about the others but its seems that you seem to treat me a certain way. Like you don't even know me. Do you have something against me? Did I take something or someone away from you? You got to tell me. If you don't, its just going to bother me everytime I see you.

You know who you are.

Its been 3 years since we all know each other and I feel that it took 3 years for everyone to show who they really are. Some are pleasant while some are not so. As for me, I know I changed. But I also know that I didn't change to be bad but good. Sometimes I just wonder If I wasn't part of the Misfits how would my life be? Better? Or worse? I guess I will never know.

Talking about cliques. I guess some still wanna stay that way cause I don't see much of a change. Honestly Min, I really don't know how long it will last. It may end tomorrow or it may never even end at all! I will not be surprised.

Anyway Misfits, Selamat berpuasa.

its juz feel so warm in my heart seeing all of us coming together again.... celebrating birthdays... i see no cliques no more.. prove me wrong aite... i onli see ONE GROUP OF MISFITS last friday...

dah start posa dah... pakcik nak ucapkan selamat menjalani ibadah ini dengan penuh keimanan dan kesabaran... (especially to myself)

Nak mintak ampon ler kat koghang. takot tak sempat time ghayo nanti. Pakcik ler yg antara paling banyak dos agaknya... Nyakat tiap2 koghang hari plak tu.. no worri pakcik dah gi Aussie takedoghang nak kacau koghang untuk lebih sebulan...

koghang take care eh....
Looking fowards to buka posa bersama as ONE MISFITS on wednesday.. jangan tak jadi tau...

Pakcik @ pimp koghang...

-Misfit UNIQUELY Wedding-
(up for changes/update.. any takers?)

Hu's wedding: Min
Held at: -
Wedding Attire: Kain pelikat(for him), kain batik(for her)
Hantaran: Kain pelikat, kain batik..

Hu's wedding: Hana
Held at: Operating theater
Pelamin: The Operating theater table
Wedding Attire: OT gown
Hantaran: iv drip, OT equipmt, sterile gloves, mask

Hu's wedding: Lin
Held at: -
Pelamin: Under the waterfall
Wedding Attire: Raincoat
Hantaran: Umbrella

Hu's wedding: Aini
Held at: Swimming complex
Pelamin: The swimming pool
Wedding Attire: Swimming costume(for her), Swimming trunk(for him)
Hantaran: swimming cap, goggles

Hu's wedding: Dewi
Held at: -
Pelamin: -
Wedding Attire: Telekong(for her), kain(for him)
Hantaran: sejadah, tasbir..

Hu's wedding: Shafa
Held at: -
Pelamin: Katil
Wedding Attire: Nite gown(for her), boxer(for him)
Hantaran: bantal, cadar, sleeping shoes

Hu's wedding: Farz
Held at: Jalan Besar Stadium
Pelamin: the goalpost
Wedding Attire: White jersey(for both)
Hantaran: boots, shinguard, soccer socks.

All are welcome..
Food: Bring ur own food, as NO food will b provided.
N der'll b a 'Tabung amal perkahwinan misfit' outside each wedding.. Thnkew..

HHAHA!!

PS: minta maap ye kalo tersinggung perasaan ker.... kite bergurau jek..

Dear Misfitz...

lets just ignore this immatured boy. Mature-minded man dont say those kinda words. Dun bother to waste ur energy to be angry and take unnecessary actions.

We are in Poly to study, learn to work, get our diploma, and pursue our career and future. Kalau niat budak tu nak kutuk2 orang, satu hari past akan terbalas juga...

Dear Shafawati,

Selagi seseorang itu mempunyai sifat2 yg sempurna, dia memang sudah lawa disisi Allah. Bagi mereaka yg kurang sifatnya, sesungguhnya dia seseorang yang istimewa di sisi Allah.

Cuma ada sesetengah orang yang cukup sifat fizikal tapi kurang sifat hati yang bersih...

Bob, something for you to ponder.... one day will remember these words...

RASULULLAH SAW bersabda : "Orang mukmin sejati itu bukan pencela, bukan pengutuk, bukan jahat dan bukan pula cabul (suka berkata yang tidak sopan) " (HR.Muslim)

Ibnu Umar RA berkata : "Manusia yang paling dibenci oleh Allah SWT adalah orang yang suka memaki dan mengutuk". Sebagian ulama juga bertutur : "Mengutuk orang mukmin sama dengan membunuhnya".

Abu Daud RA.meriwayatkan dari Abi Darda RA, bahwa Rasulullah SAW. bersabda : "Bila seorang hamba mengutuk sesuatu, maka kutukan itu naik ke langit tapi pintu langit tertutup. Lalu ia turun ke bumi tapi pintu bumi pun tertutup. Kemudian kutukan itu pun bergerak ke kanan dan ke kiri. Saat ia tidak menemukan jalan keluar atau jalan masuk maka kutukan itu kembali kepada orang yang dikutuk jika memang ia pantas untuk dikutuk. Jika tidak maka kutukan itu kembali ketuannya (orang yang mengucapkannya)" ( HR.Bukhari dan Ibnu Hajar ).

dear beloved misfits...

some of u might be angry and hurt by this 'bob's words....
I hope u all wont take it too hard or react harshly...
yup, its his feelings and he chose to say it out loud....

i'll take this opportunity to remind myself and ourselves...

whiceher way ppl appeared, its all is God's creation,

Assuming u believe in God,
critsizing about others appearance is just like critisizing God's creation.
Sinful isnt it...?
the special thing about this 'sin' that its ONLY forgivable by apologising...

Assuming that you dont believe in God,
how about ppl say that to you in front of everyone....?
Ouch isnt it?

Ponder over it... Bob...

The misfits may not be beauties in everyone's eyes,
but at least the have beautiful 'akhlak' and kind soul....
They may be doing the most dirtiest job on earth but
all of them has a noble heart that no everyone has...
Each of us has our own identity...
and each of you all are unique...
tudung or not,
make up or not,
u all groom well...
with your own identity...
Im proud of it...
as a brother proud of his sisters
as a father proud seeing his daughters

So Bob,
no harm apologising if your conscience is clear...
these girls are kind enough to forgive you...
I promise you...

~amean@pakcik@pak

Our TIMELINE in NYP..
(the most memorable post I ever posted!)-FarZ
We started wif tis:


Our 1st Nurses' Dae, wen we'r ALL still INNOCENT..


N we'r so SMANGAT to go airport at 6AM!


N tis is OUR 1st CLass outing to Sentosa..


n our Lin & Aini were still BESFREN 4eva..


N dewi still look baby-ish n farz step specky...


Wen Hana is soo sporty n Shafa looks soo nerdy..


N Min still look YOUNG... (haha)



& our CRAZY moment wif a 'stranger'


our visit wen Min got hospitalised.


N tis is OUR 1st class BBQ..


ANother pic of e 1st class bbq..


ANd we'r ALL so hapie n cheerful~


& NUTING cud ever make us FROWN..


N our 1st outing to e Seoul Garden..


Our crazy 'effect' pic..


n e hands of MISFITs


And even wen borednes sumtimes KILLS..


ANother bored pic..


We'r still e Misfits..


& another yr past again..


We'r still as HOT as RED~


And Tis is our 1st chaletz..


We STILL nvr fail to put on a smile on our face..


And we get seriously CRAZY!


N sumtimes mayb soo EVIL-lish


N yet, our PIMP save e dae..


N tis is our 1st n very OWN misfit beraye..


N den.. e yr3 wich is FULL of HELL..


N TIS is OUR LAST outing.. Without Min..

N tts HOW our story goes..

long time neva rite...

one week has passed. And we have recieved each of our task and burden for the next few weeks. ICA, CBL, ttrl, lab assesment nursing project.

Pakcik looking foward to working together with you all. As we would expect, the stress level will and have escalate. For those who know and have worked with pakcik, u may have anticipate my changes in my behaviour anytime soon.

Just need a small favour from you all... remind me to smile whenever u see me frowning....

Thank You...

* I wanna to take pic with u all at the grad ceremony one year from now....

Slogan Generator: Muqsit

1.Just Do Muqsit. (wahh he can b done??)

2.Look, Ma, No Muqsit! (yeahh check.. No muqsit.. im Sadd..)

3.Think Muqsit.(cool.. im thinkngg!!)

4.When You've Got Muqsit, Flaunt It. (orite i shall!!)

5.Melts In Your Muqsit, Not In Your Hand. (ok.. *melts away*)

6.A Muqsit A Day Helps You Work, Rest and Play. (wahhh tts gddd!)

7.Is It Live, Or Is It Muqsit? (its MUQSITT!!!)

8.Prolongs Active Muqsit. (ermmm.. hahaha!)

9.Now with 50% more Muqsit! (wahhhh I wann.. gr8 sg sale now on!!)

10.Don't You Just Love Being In Muqsit? (kinkyyyy!!!!)

Currently, Its e EMOs vs e non-EMOs..
--Not dat its a disease outbreak or a terrorist attack (wich cud strike ANITIME, ANYWHERE, ANYONE)-- hahaa!
(warning tis is e MOZ explicit content.. READ but Plz dun b MORE emo)-FArz

Okok.. e point here i wanna clarify is I seriously, sincerely truly felt tt WE r not as united as b4.. Now its lyk more to e EMOs vs non-EMOs...
Well, i juz felt tt der's 'spaceS' btwn us now.. as in - S - P - A - C - E - S -
We communicate LESS now.. we had lesser 'outings' together..
Juz look at our break time.. Mayb last time its an excuse lar cos we got projects to do.. BUT now??????
Its either sum1 absent or sum1 not talking to e WHOLE of us but onli one of us(making thier own lil conversation).. its sooo seems tt we had been SPLIT! n wen cums to outing.. e reasons is 'oh sorry im werking' or 'oh u didnt inform me' or 'oh i gg out wif my frens'
N worst wen u talk to sum1 OUTSIDE e 'misfit' gang.. u seems MUCH more happier den u r talking to us.. *doesnt tt make us feel @#%^&&*
I dunnoe.. i juz feel e COLDNESS btwn us now..

Im not saying tt imm perfect or tt im a HAPPIE-GO-LUCKY kinda girl OR I had NO probs at ALL..
evry1 has probs.. sum MAY choooooose to hide it..
((Of corz.. i got LOTS of probs at hme.. regarding financial probs.. *tts e reason WHY i dun wanna spent lotsa money and HAD to b a CHEAPSKATE!!!*))

but e ting is IF U had problems, u can shaRE wif us ryt??! Mayb we can help ABIT? N stop saying 'we DUN understand' wen u DIDNT even tell us ur probs!!..
But den again, its UP to INDIVIDUAL to either tell ur probs ryt?.. BUT e ting tt irritates me mos is... if u dun wanna tell ur PROBS den WHY let ur EMO out on us???????... if u tink we CANT help.. den wats e point of us being FRENS??????????!!!!!!! or one ting.. "DO u reali regard us as ur fren?"

Look, mayb im stilll immature or YOUNG n dun understand ADULT's probs.. but hey.. ders olways a SOLUTION to EVRY PROBLEMs..
Mayb tinking POSITIVE abit will do.. n not to tink tt EVRYTING had gone DOWN n tt it WONT goes up again...

Of corz we CRITISIsE or mayb secara tidak spontan HURTS u deep dwn.. but hey.. dun take it tooooo hard..
((U guys too did hurts me.. esp wen u guys sae im a cheapskate.. baju beli kat tis fashion etc wateva nots...)) but i didnt take it TOOO hard n CREATE more PROBS..
e ting is U tink TOOOOOO much abt ur probs tt U tink tt DERS no SOluTION at all..
Der's olways help-line available.. or u cud talk to ur other frens if u wan to.. SO im saying is tt.. Plzzz dun b soo emo..

N PLEASE dun let ur EMOTION control u..

PS: sorri if tis post hurtz u.. BUT it hurts me more if u reallli wanna knoe!

GuESs WhO!!!

Our lovely memories~



Our veteranz


1st dae of yr2, sem 2

long time neva write....

yup... indeed pakcik has been missing for quite sumtime...

pardon me once again for the other day...

its totally beyond my control and i heard lotsa things happen due to the concellation.... of which.... some involves bleeding... sorry once again...

pakcik has no choice but gtg sumwhere away from my beloveds till things settle down here...

hope u all are still doing fine, take care and all the ebst for the upcoming ISP.....

PAkcikz....

*Me again* -since noone wanna update, let me do e honor again!

LAst dae of attchmt seems forever to end!! Urgghh!! e time runs superbly slow! But for e 1st time i get to do LO..
anyway.. for noo reason, i was scolded by tis attitude pt.. she saed im 'stubborn' coz according to her i promise to cum bck to her n help her.. BUT heck i didnt EVEN cum n touch her tt very dae!! sheeshness!
Kena scold2 frm her.. kena 'stubborn' kena 'attitude face' kena 'she dun understand me' kena 'she cum n go' kena soo many!!!
I was SAD.. i didnt do anyting wrong!! haiz.. im SOOOO sad tt i dun WISH to c her face again!!.. *i swear* n she tol me 'not to cum bck to her again!'.. heck.. how I WISH to!!
But i DO cum bck to her to change her baju n diapers!! n to help transfer her.. take her oxygen saturation.. her temperature.. *how good i am eventho im still angry wif her* N did she ONCE care??
She keep on scolding n scolding!! N she even saed 'u student r useless.. cum here n play2' and she saed 'i pay u guys n u juz play2'.. n heck i wassss kinda pissed by den tt i saed 'NO! we'r NOT paid!!'.. n yeah she juz kept her mouth SHUT afta hearin tt!
I was kinda pissed wif her!! I swearrr!!! urggghh!!
I cum to her wif a smile.. talk to her softly & politely n she juz scold scold n scolllld n even SCOLLLDDDDD me without VALID reason!!! N its ME tt she scold.. e other students she was ok.. haizz.. guess my face lyk super uber 'shitz' wich make pple angry!!!
Haizz wat to do.. im born wif it.. u fool!!
Watevala... i glad im over wif it!! Hopefully on e other attchmt, i hope i WONT c her in e ward im assign to!!!
Haiz.... im sooo sad!!! *wat a dae to end an attchmt*

Victorised me sum1!!!

B4 i get toooo outta focus.. let Me c Victor's pix

Its been quite a while since i last step e sch ground.. =P
And ATLAST i make my way to sch afta my attchmt for my soccer trgs.. n e journey was an interesting cuM exciting one ;)
Met up wif my gay bf.. wich was kinda UNEXPECTED! *wateva*.. n i tink my gay bf got a beautiful body- i LIKE! wooo~ *batal puasa* Actualli i was hoping to met 'Lin'- (tiz kiut choc) on the way but it was all juz a disappointment! =(
Ah well.. I saw Pin gui at YCK Mrt station wif his super much more neater hairstyle.. n he remind me of sum1 *haizzz* ah well, he's soo funny i tell ya..! he saw me n den smile n den turn away to talk to his frens BUT he turn e WRONG side!!!
N den met Aini's epok2.. was excited for her but ahh well.. now e hot topic is 'KHAIRUL ANUAR'.. btul tk Aini? heh
N den.. e bez part of all is to met up wif my dearly GLENN!!!! N yeah i get excited ALONE again! but of corz.. i did calm mysef dwn.. I tried to call shafa to calm mysef.. but heck.. she was 'away'.. so Lin lah jadi mangsa!!
I cudnt help it.. Glenn is sooooo near yet sooo far!! Infact he's juz abt 50cm away.. haha! sheeshness!
N den afta tt.. tot of gg to cheers to buy sum stuff but was too 'shy' coz glenn ade kat sana.. so i went str8 to e library.. n der.. i met Jac2!! N both of us r shock to c each other! haha!!
Ah well.. todae is juz a dae to meet up my 'old frens' hehehhee ;)

Hey pple.. lets compare our pics (1st dae & last dae of sch)


1st dae


Last dae

(Ok pple, my fren post tis at a bulletin board.. find it funny.. *look how many times i've done at u hana.. whahaha) -FarZ

.....tHe lAnGuAgE Of LoVE....
if a kiss is the Language of Love,
then we have a lot to talk about it...

methods of Love....

+kiss on the ear------"i'm horny"
+kiss on the cheek----"we're friends"
+kiss on the hand-----"i adore you"
+kiss on the neck------"we belong together"

+kiss on the shoulder-----"i want you"
+kiss on the lips------------"i love you" or "i want you"
+holding hands--------"we can learn to love each other"

+a wink-------------------"Let's get it on"
+slap on the butt----"thats mine"
+playing with the ear----"i can't live without you"

+holding on tight----"don't let go"
+looking into each other's eyes-----"let's get romantic"

+pulling hair on head----"tell me you love
me"
+arms around the waist---"i love you too much to let go"

=advice=
if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...

I feel down at the moment.. My Emotions is one heck of a whirlwind... Doesn't help when my immune system give way to me again.. Damn!

Things happen to me unexpectedly and i'm trying to get come to terms with it and i'm trying to understand every bitz of it.... i'm going to pick myself up again... I know i can do it but with time... but Does time really heal all wounds??

I cannot concentrate much on school & i've crying myself to sleep everyday... Is this what being 20 is like?

I need to get away and i need to relaz but its so hard... I need companion now... I need friends most now... I cannot be alone...

Everyone wondering.. wassup with me right... onli this much i can sae because i'm embarrased... Itz about me, my life, my lovelife, my family...

I need the support of my frenz now and i'm sorie if there are times that i look despondent and daze... Just hope u guyz understand ya... But dun treat me any different...

THE BLOODY *toot* DAY..... a.k.a *toot* the SCOOT

I know sumthing not gonna be right today when i forgot abt a grp meeting while i was having my lunch at home. Ironically i was the one who reminded them abt the meeting today last sunday.

13:40pm

Drizzling but such a cool weather for a ride. Donning my Nike Jacket, hop onto the scooter and tutututututooooooooot......

Juz after the flyover, wanna ram the throttle when "tutututututooooooooopramprambushbooosh!"

ARRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Electric starter nor Kickstart.......... useless!

13:46pm

Officially pronounced dead. Cursing and swearing in the rain. Tried to call a few of my frenz but failed. Finally got hold of hana and melissa....

14:15pm

NO CHOICE.. final decision made. pushed all the way to Braddle Workshop. Drenched!

15:10pm

a few other bike there too... had to wait my turn. i gotta admit i NEVA opened the engine ever since i passed my 2B. Well at least i cant open the engine at CTE otr i juz gonna drown the engine with water,,,,,,

15:50pm

Situation was exactly like A&E except that its for bikes. So now its my bike turn... wait and wait and wait...


16:20pm

Damn! i juz realized that i got appoint with makcik and visit Lin! PRob still havent solve!!! All method tried but makcik still disappointed........ well..... 2 weeks neva meet and gotto wait for another....


17:00pm

AT LAST! and guess what! the problem is......

mailto:$%*^##@%&^*^%$#%&%$

SPARK PLUG!!!

its too basic to be a blunder! and all its cost was $5+

$5 that caused me to be drenched, missed my prac and 2 lectures and visit to my sick fren and my project meeting and my 'long overdue' date!

*tooot* the scoot....

Guess who this person is..

eh krg.. suddenly i feel lyk writing in malay...

"Eh aku tetiba je rindu krg2 nye dedikasi kat 'p10'.. buat ah dedikasi lagi.. hana, aini.."

Com on pple.. eh btw.. tag aku n tag misfit ni mcm 'lemau' sak.. tak berjalan.. com on pple tagg~ haha!

-FarZ wastin time again by bloggin~!!!