sydney darling harbour

pakcik trying to steal a train

shopping....

Its juz shocking and sad to read all these in Sydney.

Not everyone can understand each other feelings.. true... i admit...

but if dat person cant understand you, dont ever think that he/she will neva understand u thus a reason for the frenship to crumble.

look here all of you. 7 of us, 7 background, 7 perangai. That's normal. We are human. There is nothing wrong if A understand B more than C in a group... so C shouldnt feel left out and B shouldnt feel that C WONT understand and the rest shouldnt feel that there is sub-cliques.

They are still in ONE group.

BUT please! if you cant afford to do anything to repair this tattered frenship... dont ever further destroy it.

I thanks lin for wanting to organise the raya outing. Im sorri that i cant join you all. And i have said AWAL2 that i have to go for my shooting or im as good as being fired. U all are welcome to raya at my house on that friday. But it is so sad that this year only 3 of misfits make that effort going to visit EACH OTHER despite my absence. I dont expect the rest to explain their reasons why. That day is over by the way.

I did my best to be neutral and tactful as possible to solve this. I cant work alone. IF only ALL AND EACH SINGLE ONE OF YOU play your part. We can start afresh once again.

I repeat... EACH AND SINGLE ONE OF YOU out there.

Ask you heart. DO YOU STILL WANT MISIFTS to exist...

no point pretend and hiding that answer.... just say it out here. this blog is ours.. remember?


~your dear pakcik

There has been problems between us.. What was the triggering factors remain unknown.. Bitching behind each other... drifting apart day by day... division starts appearing... outing together was limited..

But yet when we see each other.. Everyone pretend that nothing happens and tat things were normal... Strange...

Insensitive remarks were thrown around and we were not what we used to be... things mellowed down now but yet each and everyone of us knows that the cracks existed...

I guess everyone is sick and tired of doing anything to heal the cracks...

To sae that i started everything would be unfair to me and i shall not discount myself because EVERYONE plays a part in making a friendship work... I guess we have stopped trying to play a part in our friendship..

Sometimes honesty hurts me but after thinking everything through and rationalizing everything.. i am ready to face honesty and truth..

Frankly i dun think i have ever been a good friend to any of you nor have i being anywhere near a bad friend to any of you.. I guess my major flaw are that i being very sensitive and i refuse to open up.. This creates a barrier between me and anybody around me... I blame no one but myself...

However i guess i am slowly redeeming myself and has began to open up... open up not to anyone but shafa and hana... they provide me with the security and assurance that they wun judge me and they listen...

Dewi once told me " nt everyone is really comfortable with each other. yes we all can share laughters & stuffs. but it isnt the same when sharing feelings, tots & secrets..." Thinking through her words i realise yeah it is true.. i guess i was just being naive to think that we could all share thoughts together.. and so i grow out of it.. I shall not torture myself anymore wanting all the MISFITS to share each other thoughts and secrets..
I am sorry Misfits for expecting that from all of you.. Thanks you to shafa and hana for being my confidant.. I appreciate it alot..

It is no longer a secret that there exist cliques between us..
clique 1: Shafa, lynn & hana
clique 2: Dewi, aini & farz
All of us know it and it is happening... It is nobody fault that we all end up this way...

Hey this will sound childish..haha! I guess what is bothering is that dewi, aini & farz dun ask us along to any of your outings whereas we do ask you all to join us... i guess maybe you all doubt our sincerity and you all may thought that we ask you all just for the sake of askin.. well heck No.. when we ask you all it means we wan you to join us.. Childish right...?

Well i do not know why is it this way and i just dun understand... So is it the time for us to stop asking each other out....

and this is my confession...
Ever since what has happen between all of us.. i grew uncomfortable with Dewi, Aini & farz.. i suppose you all could sense my indifference towards you all.. I am sorry but that is how i feel.. i cannot talk comfortably with you nor am i able to show you my sincere smile... I feel hurt inside... as long as the hurt is still there my indifference remain..
dun get me wrong.. i am not saying i do not want to be frens with you anymore but rather i need time to heal just like all of you.. i guess this holiday is a good time for it...

Sorry for being Emo cause i know you dun like but this is how i am.. emotional over things...

But hey... i didnt mean that we cannot go out during the holidays together... do hope we could still go out together once in awhile...

Entry by : Nooradlin Marina

dear misfits....

Pakcik apologise for my 'detachment' with you all these few days.... let me assure you that pakcik has no intention of abadoning or ignoring you girls. This juz temporary...i promise....

Times have been tough for me. I havent got a chance to share it with anyone and also dowanna interrupt your preparation. That is why i prefer to be in my solitude space and times.

people say... take it one at a time... but it all come at one shot... honestly pakcik unable to give 100% for my exam this semester.

Wanted to reali chill outwith you guyz and pour it out after exam but by then pakcik dah fly to Sydney.

Pakcik banyak2 minta maaf coz tak dapat jalan beraya with you all. Pakick harap jangan lah kerana pakcik korang tak jalan beraya. Walau tak dapat beraya, i reali wish that at least we can have a small raya gathering together. at least we bawak kuih2 and have lunch ke.... I leave it to you guyz...

Thats my wish.... and im left with onli 3 days......

I will be missing you girls....