Lynn

Whatever has happen, happen already. What is done cannot be undone. No doubt we had alot of fun as misfits. I may not express how much i miss misfits but deep down i do. But i am just too tired. I do not even bother doing anything to make it better because i know I am not capable of doing it.

Truth be told. I know my character best than anyone else. I know what kind of person i am. And yes Not everyone can tolerate me. And not everyone can understand me. It is never easy being who we are as an individual. I have never really blame anyone for not being able to get along with me and stuff because it all boils down to how much i wan to open up and who i wan to open up too. It goes the same for everyone.

All this time, i have never been a good friend to any of you. I hurt people's feelings consciously and unconsciously. I am temperamental. I always want things my way most of the time. I am stubborn. I am cold when i want to be. These are some of the many characteristic not everyone can accept in me but that is who i am. I did try changing but somehow my roots are stronger sometimes. But that does not mean i stop there. But it just wasnt enough.

And i know people hate me for my frankness at times. But sometimes i cant help it. I rather be frank than to hide and be insincere about it. I am a big advocator of sincerity. I will not do something with no sincerity and i totally hate pretence. There is alwayS a good and bad thing to it. It is just how people choose to see me. And I am not blaming any of you for hating me for being VERY FRANK To YOU TILL IT HURTS. I totally understand.
Sometimes i hate my guts for doing things and saying things at times without thinking.I guess my flaw is too undesirable.

It is always easier to say than doing it. It is the same for everyone. Damaged has already been done to each and everyone of us direct or indirectly. Purposely or accidentally.

And farz... though you did made an effort to make things better between us and trying to gain back what u think u lost from me, i choose to stay away from you. It was a decision on my part.It is because the damaged has been done and i am someone who doesnt trust easily in the first place. And so it is hard just gainin it back. I know i am cruel in that sense but i really cannot bring myself to do that. I push you to the point where there is no room to amek it better . And i am not saying there will be no room forever but i take a very long time to recover. Though i look strong outside, inside i am not. While i am still trying to recover, i would very much like to stay away from you to prevent any other misunderstanding occuring. That is why i will try my best to avoid you.

All of us made a mistake.

But you all should question yourselves after readin this..

How ready are you to get misfit back on track?
Will we ever be the same again?
Will there be openness after this in our friendship?
Will everyone be sincere with each other and not pretend anymore?
Will we be happy as one again.

I hope misfits are on the road to recovery.